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Sunday, 22 December 2013

Missing my childhood..

I miss my childhood. I really do.  But missing childhood makes me feel like an outcast. All around me, I see, and I hear, 'Tak sabor nak kahwin!' 'Eee bila nak dapat baby ni' 'Yayyy degree done, gonna do my Masters next!'. Everyone seems to be progressing forward, anticipating the future. Not me. I want to go back.

Can you guys still remember?

When you're a kid, and it rains, you would run outside while shouting so joyfully. And friends won't nag you and say 'Eh jangan main hujan lah, nanti demam!'. No, they would join in the fun. I miss that.

Can you guys still remember?

Fights would be over silly things. Not sharing colour pencils. Forgetting to bring the plastic container to put in the tadpoles. All that stupid stuff. None of this adult-life-is-hitting-you-in-the-face crap. I miss that.

Can you guys still remember?

We would find pleasures in very small things. Seeing the swings unoccupied. Having the whole playground to yourself. Catching a frog. Finally reaching the very top of the tree after numerous tries. Snacking on 'ice-cream Malaysia' (aka aiskrim batang). As you grow older, you won't appreciate these things any longer. Well, how can you? You can't go play in the playground or go after frogs or climb trees. And snacking on a mere ice lolly will hardly leave you a 'glowing feeling' considering you now have money to buy KFC, Dominos and all that fancy food restaurants. Life was just so simple back then. I miss that.

Can you guys still remember?

The naivety,curiosity, ignorance! Gosh! We would wonder endlessly how babies are made. Why is it when you eat cotton candy in turns all sugary in your mouth. What is the cloud made of. Why is it that rainbows have so many colours. So many questions unanswered, and the thirst for knowledge! So adventurous back then. Going on self-made quests, trying out the silliest things without a care in the world. I miss that.

I miss the days when you can tell 'Teddy' all your problems and things will be alright again. I miss the days when the only guys that will make you cry is your own dad when he forgets to buy you candy back from work or your brother when he won't let you play with his toys. I miss the days when homework was just colouring. I miss the days when you can be a mess and people still thinks you're cute. And friendships, relationships, they were so easy! I miss so so many things.

2013 is coming to an end. Next year I will turn 21, by right, a real adult. I am in no rush to get married, or start a family. Nor am I excited to finish my degree quickly. Not only do I want to stay in the present, I wish, somehow, I can go back and relive those fond memories.

But that can't happen, and I accept that. I'm glad that I was granted a wonderful childhood. I know I'm lucky, seeing my brothers and sisters in the Middle East, having to be 'older' than they really are. Experiencing pain and hurt that even an adult would find hard to bear.

And honestly, being an adult is not all that bad. :)

So people, please take a minute to be grateful that you have had a wonderful past
and another minute to make duas for your brothers and sisters in Syria, Myanmar,Palestin, Egypt
and another minute to rejoice that another year is about to end! ALHAMDULILLAH, your soul is still intact with your body!

Movingggggggg forward peeps!!
Besides, my childhood may be over, but not my play time! :P

1 comment:

Zayyan said...

zaman kanakII adventurous gilerr. panjat pokok, jatuh parit, tangkap berudu bela sampai jd katak. Life is so beautiful back then. Wish i wasn't grow up.. =')

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